791 Days

“I do keep him at the back of my mind for those times I get my hopes raised about something. So then I can slap myself into reality and remind myself of what happens when you let someone into your sacred space.”-Melina Marchetta

This year has past by too quickly, so many things happened and to be honest it was really overwhelming to me. Went through a hell of roller coaster in the first three months of year 2019, first two month was tough but bearable, but I can't really handle what happened in March, lets just say it was something that I have never expected it to be happened.

It was the first time I know what a heartache truly is, you can't do anything but to immerse in that sadness. So many things, so many emotions I don't really know how to put them into words. Trust takes years to build, seconds to break, and forever to repair and I don't even know if it can be repaired? Well, I guess it doesn't matter already.

Let's hope the remaining of 2019 will be good, I will do better.

Goodbye 2015 Hello 2016

To be honest, I can't really rmb what exactly had happened in the past year. Changed job was probably the most correct decision i had made in 2015. Got myself enrolled to the course that I love doing. Travelled to Sri Lanka, Jiu Zhai Gou, Taiwan and BKK..more places to explore in 2016! Words can't summarize everything in 2015 but im thankful enough for those who had entered my life, be it good or bad. A brand new year, a new chapter, continue to count my blessings and becoming a better person for myself and those i care and love. Happy 2016 everyone!

Inked.

Tattoos have a power and magic all their own. They decorate the body but they also enhance the soul.

-Michelle Delio

Yes, i did my first tattoo last month and it was the boldest decision i had ever made so far.

I thought of getting one since long time ago but i know my parents will strongly object on the idea of getting inked. I don't know why and how I finally have the courage to go for it without telling them, lol. Frankly speaking, I felt nervous and scared when i was seated at the tattoo place. Questions that kept repeating in my head "Do i really wanted to get this? Will I regret in the future?" But i know one thing for sure, I will surely regret if I didn't do it.

I designed the tattoo myself and i just want to keep it simple so it was basically made up by lines. The whole progress was quite fast though it hurts so much. Ok, the pain level was still manageable, at least I didn't pass out..lol. The feeling was surreal after seeing the final product on my wrist, I never imagine myself of getting inked, like for real! Ok, i know it's really small but still it's something that i never thought that i will have it done.

They said one might get addicted once get inked, I have to agree..haha!

Hello 2015

"Life is full of hardships but it is how you deal with them that will, in the end, define you."

I can say that 2014 was not a very great year for me, it seemed so long yet so fast to end. I came back from Aussie after my exchange and realize part of my life have changed. So many things happened and I don't think I prepared myself enough for all these unexpected incidents. That being said, I am still grateful that all these happened, be it bitter or sweet. And I am really thankful to those who are still staying by my side.

There were so many times that I questioned myself what did i do wrong, what have i done to deserve/not deserve like this but i realized the best thing i can do is just forget and forgive. It was hard but at least i tried. There are questions i'm still not wise enough to answer, but wise enough to no longer ask.

I'm not going to do any 35984565 resolutions this year, i will only work harder to become a better person, to myself, to the loved ones, to everyone that matters.

Happy New Year everyone and may we all have a great year ahead :)

Happy Graduation Little Sis

Attended my dear little sis's convo last Sunday and man we need to be there at 8am! My parents can't attend the convocation as they were working so I asked Shen Sim to accompany me, hehe! Both of us didn't have our breakfast and we were so so so hungry in the middle of the ceremony, lol! Happy Graduation my dear little sis! I know you can't wait to go Taiwan to further your studies..or to have fun actually LOL!

As Shen Sim said, it was really nostalgic seeing the little one graduated. :)

Resolutions

1. Pursue my passion
2. Live in the moment
3. Give back
4. Don't sweat the little things
5. Stop waiting for things to happen and go make them happen
6. Read more books
7. Draw more
8. Rekindle old friendships
9. Say sorry and accept sorry
10. Spend more time with the people i love
11. Be kind 
12. Become a better person
13. Be more confident
14. Save more money, don't overspend :x
15. 减肥 (like a forever..haha!)

Cheers everyone, let's make 2014 a better one :D

Happy New Year 14'

The past year had been great and i am really thankful for everything and everyone i met. Thanks for those who always stand by my side and support me regardless of the distance. Though there were ups and downs for sure, but i've learned and grow so much. Words won't be enough to sum up the whole year but i would say that it was a really fruitful year with countless unforgettable experiences and memories.

May 2014 be a fabulous year and cheers to the new beginnings! Happy New Year everyone! :)

Throwback #3

Just had my 1st paper yesterday and i don't really know what to say about it. First half of the paper was so easy that i can't believe i spent so much time memorizing on that part. But the 2nd part of the paper was extremely hard that i kind of afraid that i can't pass this module T.T

Ok, i got really bored with the mugging so i decided to blog! Hehe! 

I still remember the days i met up with my friendsss before i came here, everyone was treating me like i'm gonna be away for 3 years, lol! Even my parents asked that why am i so busy meeting with everyone, after all it's just 4 months! Anyway, i meet up with my bff joanne, and the 2 lovely girls, zixuan and wanxi who i haven meet for ages! We knew each other since secondary school but i didn't get to meet zixuan and wanxi so often since we graduated. We decided to have our little catch up session at P.S.Cafe, Paragon as i was dying to try their truffle fries, hehe!

We took really long to decide what to order as everything seems appealing to us, lol! Pardon me for the bad quality of the picture, haha! We ordered P.S.Caesar salad, house bolognese and the truffle shoestring fries to share. The portion of the truffle fries was so BIGGG but it was so good that we just can't stop eating! Besides the truffle fries, i love their house bolognese too! It was really good! :)

We were busy updating each other and talk for really long until the cafe closed. Took so many pictures afterwards and we got a little bit crazy by the photo-taking app in my phone. We actually asked one of the staff there to help us take a group shot outside the cafe but apparently he failed at it! So i told the girls that we can take our own pictures using the app in my phone. It's something like a timer thingy that you can set the timing you like and get ready for the pictures! We tried so many ways to get a perfect shot like finding the places to put my phone, good lighting spot and etc, lol!

Ahhh..i miss the girls so much, can't wait to be back and see them again! :D

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OK back to reality, back to study, 2 more papers!! FIGHTING!!!

Throwback #2

In case you are wondering why am I doing a throwback, read here! :p Today's throwback will be the b'day surprise back in 2011 that Afrans did for me when we were rushing our fyp that time. Maybe i should just talk about Afrans for a bit, lol! Afrans is our fyp team's name and it was formed by a letter from each of our names. A is for Anelie, f is for Fish, r is for Rongrong, a again is for Aisyah, n is for Nerissa and lastly s is for me, ShinPuay! :)

Initially i was not in their group but with pl and wj, but 3 ppl is just quite impossible to form a team as the workload is real heavy (no kidding). So, we got separated and join the other groups. I'm so grateful that they accepted me as their new member and tbh i was quite scared when i first joining their group. I barely know them except Aisyah as we were in the same class the previous year. I felt really awkward to be in the group and somehow they look really scary at the beginning especially Anelie, haha! I still remember the 1st thing she said to me was "what do you think you can do for our group?" That was during our 1st meeting. And i was like..errr...don't know what to say, lol! But somehow we managed to click very very well and i was really really glad that i did my fyp with this bunch of people. Our relationship become super close as we meet each other so often to do our fyp, and i actually got my 1st part time job in Peperoni thanks to Anelie! So, i think i'm like meeting Anelie almost everyday coz we work together in Peperoni, hahaha!

Anyway, these pics were taken in Nerissa's place when we were rushing for our fyp. I didn't expect them to celebrate for my b'day and i was so so so surprised when i saw them with the cake, lol! They actually discussed very long for the choice of cake as they can't decide which flavor to get for me. Obviously they did a wrong choice by buying a strawberry cake! HAHAHAHA!

Someone was trying to burn my hair with the lighter! Please ignore my silly bangs, lol! And i have no idea why am i laughing like an idiot - - 

Really thankful to have them as my group mates and i am pretty sure our relationship and teamwork is the best among the other groups, even the lecturers were surprised by the strong bond between us, lol! We had so much fun during the process of fyp and of course we did face many obstacles and having a hard time when the deadline is near. It was not easy but we have pulled through and come out with the pretty awesome work in the end. It was a really wonderful journey with all of them and i can't really express how grateful am i to be able to work with them! Perhaps I will do more throwback posts about Afrans in the future! :)

lastly, AFRANS FTW! :D

Throwback #1

I was trying to clear some unwanted files in my computer yesterday and end up looking through all the old pictures that i saved in my computer. Feel so nostalgia just by browsing through all the old photos so i decided to do some throwback posts here, lol!

Throwback #1- My convent girls :)

These 4 girls are my BEST friends during secondary school. How i miss the time we  skipped our lessons and meet at the secret place (apparently it's some classroom that nobody used all the time). We did so many stupid things together and always try to sneak out of the school. I still remember the day we went to the mall near our school before our lesson and nearly can't come back to school due to the super heavy rain. Fyi, our school always flood whenever there's rain. And the rain on that day is no joke, the cab stopped at somewhere near the school and we have to walk under the rain. AND I FELL INTO A BIG LONGKANG just in front of the school gate, wth! 

Took these photos on the last week of our school and the last photo is so hilarious coz yx fell down for god's sake dunno what reason! We laughed so hard at her and nobody actually want to help her up HAHAHAHA wth XD

On a side note, maybe i can label this post as 'whatpubertydidtous'? Haha! 

The beauty of art

Go into the arts. I’m not kidding. The arts are not a way to make a living. They are a very human way of making life more bearable. Practicing an art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow , for heaven’s sake. Sing in the shower. Dance to the radio. Tell stories. Write a poem to a friend, even a lousy poem. Do it as well as you possibly can. You will get an enormous reward. You will have created something. 

text source: Tumblr 

I remember there was once I wished that I can't draw during secondary school time. I draw all the time. I don't know why, I just can't stop drawing. I keep drawing and drawing and neglect my school works eventually. My drawings were all over the places, on my textbooks,notebooks and even exam paper.  I think this explain why my mum was so angry and don't allow me to draw anymore. She actually threw away my drawings into the dustbin in front of me. Well, I took them back after she left, lol! I guess I put drawing as my  main priority that time and my academic results were so bad. I once regretted that I have this talent and I wish i can replace it with something else like a good memory that can help me in studying. I AM SO GLAD that my prayer didn't get answered last time, phew! Thinking back the thought that i had last time, it actually scared me, how can i make such a stupid wish. Although i don't draw so much like I did last time, but i still love drawing very much.  I guess the reason why I don't draw so often is just because of my laziness, lol!